swazi to stay

it's now official, i will not be returning to zimbabwe. i sort of expected that but we finally had confirmation a few days ago. i have mixed feelings about it. my placement in zim was a dream come true and i doubt i 'd be able to get another placement that was such a perfect fit (but i'll hope) however life in zim was really hard and i can only imagine how much harder it has become.
when we were first arrived, we were able to find bottled water, some meat (not for me), milk (1liter limit though), soap and limited fuel for the buses in the morning. after just 3 weeks, none of the above could be found! i would wait for over an hour in the morning for a bus as hardly any were running due to fuel shortages. every morning i 'd see hundreds of people lined up in front of bakeries waiting for bread. people were using only water to wash.
the streets in the rural areas were lined with people - stuck waiting for fuel for their cars or for a bus that wasn't jam packed with people. i was told some would be waiting for days. days!!!
when i'd go 'shopping' i'd have to bring millions of dollars with me. my bag was filled with cash. some bread, veggies and fruit would cost me a few million. it took everyone a long time to count out their money at the till. it was unreal.
i've heard the supermarket in my area has now closed. i lived in the most affluent part of harare and i can only imagine if the rich are running low of basic needs what the rural and poorer areas must be like.
i'm blessed because i was able to leave. i hate how life works sometimes.